Too Lazy

Lately, I have been trying very, very hard to exercise in the mornings. However, I am failing miserably.

I go to the gym at the high school. During the summer, they had open gym from 8:00 am to 10:00 am, so I would load Jader in her stroller and walk over to the gym around 8:30. I would work out while she played on the floor (or the machines), then I would load her up and we would walk home. I did this three or four times a week. On the days I didn't go to the gym, we would go for a walk or bike ride.

School started up, so I had to start going early in the morning to get my workout in. During the Fall months, I would get up at 5:30 to go to the gym before Jader woke up, and before Austin left for work. Winter quickly came, and it started getting colder. It was so dark in the morning, and for some reason, I had a hard time getting up to go to the gym. Then, I went through a couple of personal crisis's, and our house was hit with the flu, and now two months later, I am really struggling with getting started again.

For the last two mornings I have set my alarm to wake up early. I have set out my gym clothes, my tennis shoes, my water and my ipod, all in anticipation of leaving the house and going to the gym. Well, on Monday, I was too tired because I lost an hour of sleep in the middle of the night when Jader kept us awake. Austin attended to her twice, but she really wanted her momma. When I went in to her, I realized that she was cold and unable to sleep. I changed her bum, then dressed her in some warmer PJ's and she was able to go back to sleep. However, I couldn't return to slumber right away, so when my alarm went off in the morning, I silenced it and went back to sleep. I did work out from home last night, though, to make up for it.

This morning, I tried again. I even went to bed early hoping it would help. I was in bed by 8:20 pm last night, read for a half an hour, and was asleep by 9:00 pm. Jader slept through the night (as usual) so this morning, when my alarm went off and I was still sleepy, I couldn't blame her for it. I pressed the snooze button twice, and then decided instead of going to the gym, I would get up and make my husband some breakfast. I made him some delicious, from scratch, freshly ground, 100% whole wheat waffles. We enjoyed breakfast together, and I decided not to feel too bad about not going to the gym because I have volleyball games tonight, and I can get some exercise in then.

Besides being too lazy, I have a hard time leaving in the morning because I don't want Jader to wake up too early and bother Austin while he is trying to get ready for work. And, for the last three or four weeks, she has been waking up a lot earlier than normal. I would feel guilty knowing I was at the gym while he was home taking care of her and not being able to get ready. The last thing I need is for him to be late arriving at work.

I know, I know, I'm full of excuses. Really, I'd like to change and not have any excuses. I have never had a hard time exercising. I actually enjoy it. A lot. I guess I'll just have to chalk it up to a terribly long, cold, and dark winter, and personal reasons that are affecting my attitude and energy. Whatever it is, I hope I can make some changes really quick. I'm starting to feel BLAH!

I have some Pilates DVD's, free weights, a Max Weider weight bench (a Bowflex knockoff), and I know some Yoga moves, so it's not like I don't have any options for exercising at home. It's a lot harder for me to workout at home. I have never liked it. I can't get as good a workout in. I've always liked leaving the house to go to a gym. It helps me keep my focus.

When I stay at home to workout, I am always thinking about what needs to be done around the house. I think about the dirty clothes in the laundry room, the clean clothes on the rack that need to be folded and put away, the stinky dishes in the kitchen sink, and the toys in the babies room that need to be picked up. When I leave the house, I don't think about any of those things. Just arrive, lift weights, leave.

So, my resolve is, starting tomorrow, I will get up with my alarm, get my gym clothes on, leave the house, and get to the gym. Y'all have to hold me to it, deal?